x` the love that soars ; .

The Love That Soars, I'm With You [v22.0]

I would never erase the sincerity in your eyes,
when u told me, you love me.
I would also never forget the way your eyes burn,
when I angered you, and broke your heart right from the bottom.
neither would I forget the sadness in your voice,
when you said sorry after everything.

These are every bits and pieces of the pair of wings a butterfly has.
put them back again, and we get to soar up high.

Dear, I love you.

15 March, 2007

Someone whom I used to look up to as a role model suddenly spoiled my impression of her. She didn't made of fool of herself but she showed me the ugly side of her. I felt digusted... anyway I guess I shouldn't waste anymore time with her. To think that I respect her, confide to her and listened to her yet she was actually sooooooooooooo unhappy about me & my everything that she must go around telling people how much she resented me. Ha... I don't give a damm care anymore...

Back to the reality, tomorrow is my last day at NUH!!!! Thank God... I'm ending my attachment soon. But the sad thing is I'm doing afternoon shift which means I won't get to enjoy towards the end of Friday evening. I'm grateful that I've managed to sail through this attachment without breaking down.

Hippo is going to buy KTV set soon but he's yet to pin his plasma TV onto the wall... I dunno why his mum came up with such an idea of fixing the TV onto the wall. I didn't know she's even interested to know what kind of songs do I like to sing.

Guess what? I cut my hair again, & again it's done by Mike the ex-celebrity hairdresser... aaaahhhhh.... I didn't expect it to be so short that I dun need to tie up my hair again. But this time the haircut is a style, a concave style. A style which I've cut before when I was 15 yrs old. It's slightly different from the current one becos it's like a rainbow slope. Rainbow has the shape of concave isn't it??? I expected this haircut to raise comments from my group mates becos it resembles our lecturer. Speaking from the bottom of my heart, I didn't mean to copy her but this haircut is in the trend now, how could I not resist the temptation of changing my outlook?? Luckily these comments died down very fast or else I'ld deeply regret for cutting this hair style. But I think it's kinda cute if my rebonding is still intact, a pity it's not becos the lousy hairstylist is not up to it!!!! I'll never patronize neighbourhood salon again!!! I'm thinking of colouring my hair again, this time round not blonde colour cos it's frightening to see me like that 2 years ago. I dunno what came over me to choose that colour and ended up inviting so many shocking faces around me. I'ld still say it's depression that caused my irrational thinking! Maybe.... a dark brown and a lighter tone colour??? I digress... wait till the day comes then I'll decide what colours do I want.

I guess when a person ages, the immunity will become lower because I've been feeling unwell for a total of 2 weeks plus. I'm glad I'm still able to drag myself to work because I dun wanna do replacement next week. I can simply make use of that week to spoil myself & indulge myself into something which I like!!!! Now that my cough has subsided but my appetite isn't good for I've been feeling nauseous & vomiting these few days. I just feel something's wrong with my stomach because I can feel that it's like 'not working' as the food is just stored down there without 'processing' it. Many a times I just feel like vomit out all my food but I stifled the thought after experiencing bloody vomitus 2 weeks ago. I was stunned when I noticed fresh blood in the beginning and digested blood subsequently, my first thought would be could I have contracted stomach cancer??? Or gastric ulcers?? Or gastritis??? The doctor prescribed me with gastric med & told me to go back for review again if the bleeding is still present. Luckily it stopped or else I'ld freaked out!

Oh yea... I wanna watch Mr Bean's movie!!!!! Looking forward to it next week!!!! I guess the whole of hippo's family wanna watch as well... lolz... then there's the teenage mutant ninja turtle movie as well.... that movie reminds me of my childhood times where my cousins & I loved to catch the cartoon every friday evening 6.30pm on channel 5. Haha... Wanted to watch the messenger movie but I think hippo wouldn't like the idea becos he's afraid of horror shows!!! Muahahaha....

Guess I'll stop here now.... I'm tired....

Wan Ying wrote at 7:06:00 pm

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