x` the love that soars ; .

The Love That Soars, I'm With You [v22.0]

I would never erase the sincerity in your eyes,
when u told me, you love me.
I would also never forget the way your eyes burn,
when I angered you, and broke your heart right from the bottom.
neither would I forget the sadness in your voice,
when you said sorry after everything.

These are every bits and pieces of the pair of wings a butterfly has.
put them back again, and we get to soar up high.

Dear, I love you.

06 April, 2007

James Blunt: "you're beautiful, you're beautiful, you're beautiful it's true..."
Me: "I'm beautiful, I'm beautiful, I'm beautiful it's true... I saw my charm doing it's works again..." Muahahahaha.... Can't help feeling thick-skinned & flattered. It's been quite some time since I've last 'mesmerized' someone. I'm sparing the details because it doesn't matter anymore because this magical feeling is over. So long the power of attracting someone is still there, it just boost up my confidence. In fact this incident will motivate me to continue keep up in improving my self-image!!! =P

PS: lucky hippo has no access to my blog or else he's going to chop off my head!!! But I've told him what happened & he seemed a bit pissed & pulled my ear. Don't worry about him, he'll get it over very fast because he knew I don't mess around!!!

It's been almost a week since I've last blogged. I wanted to blog but been feeling a bit lazy & unhappy to even lift up my fingers to type. Know why? You'll think I'm just being petty after I wrote this. Hayden is back!!!!!!! It's not a good news to me, his return spoils my mood because he's a monstrocity!!!! I don't know this time round how long is he going to stay but I hope he better leave before I start working because I seriously dislike noise while sleeping. I'm a light sleeper. Because of him I've to start locking myself up in the room again until he sleeps. It's kinda torturing myself but I really don't like him. Of all the kids I've seen & taken care of before, none of them behaves the way he did. He's the worst kid I've ever since & I daresay he came in without parental guidance. My Shawn behaves 100x better than him la.... A normal mischievous kid will stop playing prank when given a warning, scolding or beating. This Hayden will never mend his mistakes at all irregardless of many times of warnings, scoldings or beatings, no wonder he's so afraid of schooling because he always complain that his teacher keep punishing him. You see, no teacher will punish a student for nothing right???

This kid will drive me mad to the walls!!!! It's so unfortunate that the childcare centre became bankrupt in a fortnight after he started schooling. I dunno when will he leave for another childcare centre?? To prove my point that he can drive me crazy:

1) he can throw objects into whoever's bowl of soup, overturn my food while I was eating
2) playing with electrical appliances & plugs
3) throw all the neatly folded clothes all over the place
4) stick to you like a leech whenever he see you eating or drinking, if you give him a small share he'll pretend to consume it & then spit it out right onto the food you're eating
5) interrupt & touch your stuff whenever you're doing something
6) scream & wail & whine at the top of his lungs to get what he wanted
7) lock up the doors & throw away the keys
8) climb on top of you or throw himself at you while you're sleeping
9) like to climb on top of tables & chairs without first balancing himself
10) loves to repeat his mistakes despite all the scoldings & beatings inflicted on him

See, one tough child to handle. Don't tell me kids are like that. Oh come on, I've seen kids who behave better than him. When he gets active, there's no way for you to pin him down. I've experienced bringing him out once & i decided it's the last time i'm bringing him out because he's very rough & tough. Shawn is totally different from him. I've no problem in bringing him out. He's quite obedient & cooperative.

Now you know why I've to lock myself in the room to avoid being in contact with him. He likes to disturb whoever he likes it & once he's hooked himself onto you, it's hard to detach himself because he'll bawl like a spoilt brat. I think his mum also can't be bothered about him. Based on what hippo's mum have told me before, I think his parents are not in good terms all the time & his mum is almost on the verge of divorcing his dad. That's why I refused to think shotgun marriage is blissful & everlasting. Because of his return, I began talking & behaving irrationally. I keep asking hippo to make babies to keep his mum occupied so that Hayden's mum won't consider sending him back anymore. This is just my wishful thinking because I haven't achieve my goals yet.

My life has been affected by his presence. This is a tough week because I've been locking up myself in the room most of the day doing reading & beads cross-stitch. It'll get stuffy & boring to be confined until I became irritated & short-tempered. Poor hippo always kena ventilated by me. On Monday I went to gym so early in the morning & worked through till noon time (Hayden's estimated nap time) then I went home & stayed in my room throughout. On Tuesday I brought Shawn out to vivo city all day. On Wed night I went to Zouk with Baoling & her friends. I was not allowed to go clubbing but this time round because already feeling short-tempered & irritated that I decided to be rude & ignored hippo & his family. I didn't know both his parents stayed up & waited for me until 2am. I guess his mum sounded unhappy because I didn't inform her of my whereabouts & it's not safe for a girl to stay out till dawn. I felt triumphant for being rebellious & I'm not sorry at all. Next week I shall do the same thing again to spite his family. So long Hayden remains, I'll keep expressing my dissatisfaction all over the place.

Enough of Hayden... gtg

Wan Ying wrote at 12:57:00 am

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